Prayers
Today, I realized it has been over a month since my last post. Most of you know that the birthmother we had been speaking to made the decision to go with another family. It was hard. It was weird and a different emotion than I had ever felt. We had just started to put our toes in the water of hopefulness when we were forced to jerk ourselves back from the edge. To make things tougher, during the week we had been speaking with the birthmom, she found out that the baby was a little girl. I used to think I wanted a boy, and of course we will be ecstatic about any child who finds its way into our home, but the idea of having a little girl is a dream for lots of moms. I think that I moped around for about another week after we found out this was not our baby, and then I began to get that glint in my eye again, remembering that, in the end, when I have my baby in my arms, all of this waiting and heartache, like labor pains, will just be a memory....